"You're not depressed are you?" said my doctor . .

 

"Not completely" I said, "I'm just fucking angry!"  The one and only time I dropped my 'professional manners' guard and my doctor had heard me swear. Being the consummate professional he moved on . .

I was suicidal, I was in tears, I was as tense as hell and my blood pressure was completely out of control. What was compounding my frustration was the 'depression' in resources to support me. The local mental health service had become pun worthy and  'schizophrenic' with clear 'madness' of the management of their provision locally (much replicated throughout the UK as far as I can determine). The whole system itself is heading for 'suicide'. If not propagating end of life actions, within the client group, it is meant to support!

Any health or community support professional would be aware of Maslows 'hierarchy of needs' . Maslow used the terms "physiological", "safety", "belongingness" and "love", "esteem", "self-actualization", and "self-transcendence" to describe the pattern that human motivations generally move through. Human Needs and Human-scale Development is an economic model, to life, by Manfred Max-Neef and other economists. It moves away from much of the 'psycho-babble' which is a real 'turn off' for many readers.

What has become evident, in the last 20 years, is the growing need to demystify and protect mental health. Certainly in the (North) western european societies; where pressure on life is at the greatest. As family support mechanisms have changed there has become a requirement for public mechanisms of support and intervention of those enduring negative mental health issues. 

The demand for support outstrips the supply by multiple times. Much like an unweeded garden, the annoyance that is mental health issues will grow exponentially if it is not tendered. Flagged up by politicians as needing extra funding, in the UK, into the public resource has lead to some minor additional funding, but in real terms provides scant regard to this area of real demand. A recent report from a 'Freedom of Information' request highlights an overall spending cut in Mental Health funding, in 2015-16, disregarding pre-election promises by the coalition government of making increase spending (another 'material' inaccuracy by politicians).

The person, much like me, who is thrown into a dark oblivion of complex thought  (after an arrest) cannot rationalise their decision making, much of which becomes procrastination, failure to engage; then leads to isolation and desperation. They will have a fight on their hands as they battle to engage support by themselves. When it becomes evident to the medical profession, that there is a support need from the localised mental health service (often driven by a desire to suicide) they are not guaranteed any support. In my case it took nearly 9 months to get support, even with the intervention of  (the person who is expected by other agencies to 'cure all' ) my GP, from the start.

Localised safe guarding processes have gone the way that 'Care in the Community' has panned out. Starved of resources, this has lead to the weakest level of staffing and erratic management; improper facilities and a non-integrated demoralised service.

Surprisingly, I asked for help again in early 2015. This was a major accomplishment for someone who does not ask for help. I was getting more frustrated and angry with my life, so I contacted the local mental health team.

This letter was the outcome . .  . . . 

 

I heard no more from anyone! There is a 'clear message' that my death would have greater value, than my life would ever have. It's become a pointless exercise to seek any help or support.

The true picture of support is one of 'clueless' professionals, who do 'character' judge (as they are only human) influenced by their own thoughts. These professionals have few resources, lack education or experience about the emotional impact on those who are falsely accused. Therefore, support is superficial, temporary and certainly not healthy.

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This was originally written in 2015, when my GP of 20 years was at work. Sadly he has been on sick leave since October 2015 and was retired in January 2017.

 

Mr.P.R.Sincock - Complaints Appeal Unit - Devon and Cornwall Constabulary

"You have not been charged or prosecuted for any offences but your arrest has resulted in a number of adverse personal consequences."

This must be considered as the 'Understatement of the Year'. Describing the impact the arrest had on my life. In my complaint I asked them to explain the 'specific reasons' and evidence for my arrest. - An explanation of procedures was given, but no significant reason or evidence has ever been produced.

 

This is a personal website. Opinions expressed are from my own experience. Data is supported by written evidence. This site has been a cathartic exercise to recondition my thoughts away from ending my life. Throughout, there is no intention to defame or cause any harm to another person. There is, however, an eagerness by me to share my story and life with others, letting the public know what is happening under their noses, allowing them to judge me with all the information.